Doubts

The closer it gets to July 14th, the more I worry that things are not going to be okay when Phil leaves. It seems like I rely on him so much for so much! It is so hard to think that our sons may not even know him when he gets back. Liam loves his Daddy so much and has a hard time when he is at work, much less gone for nine months! Jude is young enough that he won't really know the difference, but he won't know him at all when he gets back two days before his first birthday! I don't know, maybe I am just freaking out too much, but I am worried that I will not be a good single mom for nine months! My thoughts are so sad! I really need some uplifting! The only thing that makes me feel better is knowing that we are an eternal family, and in the scheme of things, nine months is a blink of an eye! Plus he will be able to come home for 2 weeks for Christmas and I will be able to go see him in AIT. I guess maybe there is some light at the end of this dark tunnel!